We Never Left You

Even before Jess and Josh were born, I had dreams with people who had crossed over.   Brian was an old boss of mine that died in a car crash as he was driving home from a class he was attending.  In my dreams, we would just talk or he would show me things.  I questioned Rick why would Brian be in my dreams?  At one point I said to Rick I wonder if Brian is preparing me to die.  The next dream I had of Brian, all I could see was white, but I could hear him say "I will no longer be bothering you."  

And that was it until my kids crossed over...

I want to share 2 signs I received from Spirit yesterday....Early in the morning I stepped outside. It was dark. The sun had not begun to rise. I heard an owl. I thought how cool, because an owl is one of my Spirit animals. Much later in the day, Ben, Grace and I are heading home. It's late and it's dark out. An owl flies across the road in front of us. Again so cool! Two owls in one day.

So what does that mean?

Owl spirit animals are messengers of change: A transition in life, important changes that are taking place or about to happen. It can mean a death....an ending. (But don't take it literally)

Let me tell you a little of what has been going on with me.....1 1/2 weeks ago I gave my notice at the Hospice Center I have been working at. Rick's and my journey to help others has grown so much that I needed to let something go, so our family life could flow better.

A CNA at the Hospice asked me to take care of 1 more patient and it was scheduled for this morning. I thoug...

I want to talk about Mother's Day. We all know that it is coming up next Sunday and many of you might be dreading it already. I am hoping to talk about it today and take a bit of the dread away.

For some of you it maybe the first Mother's Day without your child or it could be your 16th. Whatever year it is for you, it is a reminder that our children are not here. But we can change that by changing our thoughts & our energy of what Mother's Day really means. Mother's Day is a day to celebrate being a mother. Each and everyone of you are still a mother to an amazing person. To an amazing soul! Your child knows you love them and did everything you could in your earthly body for them. They are thrilled to have had you as a mother, so don't make Mother's Day about the loss of your child.

Make Mother's Day about the love and life you gave them and everything you did and continue to do for your child! Make it about love! Love never dies. 

So this Mother's Day (try) make it about love and honorin...

I had this dream 8/2002.

My friend Jean was in my dream and we’re talking about paint colors for her son’s bedroom. Then I hear Spirit saying, “Uterus is failing.” I wake up and right away I’m worried that this is a message for Jean. Should I suggest to her to see a doctor?
I ask Spirit for guidance about what I should do. A few days later, Jean says as if out of the blue, “I just saw my gynecologist and I’m in good shape.” I’m relieved that Jean is okay. For years I questioned who this dream was about.
 

I find out that it was for me. I had a hysterectomy in 2005. My uterus was enlarged and needed to come out. Jean was important in the dream, because she didn’t care for the surgeon I was seeing. She suggested I see a different doctor and in the end, I chose the one she recommended. But the most important and amazing thing was that I gave birth to Grace on 8/11/2004 before my uterus failed.

These are my communications with my children when I was asleep.  They could be called dreams, but they are much more than that. They are interactions up close and personal in the spirit world. In each case, when the communication was finished, it felt like I was sucked out of their presence and I traveled quickly through a tunnel until I was deposited back out into the real world.  

I’m in Josh’s room, sitting in front of his brown dresser that used to be a baby changing dresser Rick made for the kids before they were born. I’m putting Josh's clothes in the bottom drawer when I sense that he is behind me. I turn around, grab him and place him on my lap. I hug him and ask, “Where have you been?” 

He smiles and laughs contentedly and says, “I’m home.” I’m confused because he isn't here with Rick and me in Waunakee. I look at him, puzzled, and then it dawns on me that he means he is in heaven. He is home.

Another dream:  Jessie and I are sitting in her room on the floor.  We’re so happy...

Jessica was in my dream and I could see that her teeth were perfectly straight. I asked her to smile for me and she did. She had a beautiful smile! Now in heaven, her teeth were perfect!

*After our kids died, we developed several rolls of film that we had taken through the year. At the time, we didn't have extra money to develop the film, but I kept taking pictures. When I looked at their photos, I noticed Jessica stopped showing her teeth when she smiled and I remember her looking at her class photo that year and not liking her Canine teeth stuck out. Jessica was going to get braces when she was a little older.

I wish I would have known earlier that this bothered her so much and let her know just how beautiful she was!